We are in a potent portal of transformation at the moment. I know that this year has felt super challenging for many of us, as we collectively witness horrors and travesties on the world stage, and also face our own unique challenges, losses and transformations.

The energy of this year feels the same to me as 2020… and we all know that 2020 was a big year globally. It was the year that I discovered the energy medicine of reiki and light language, which ended up leading me down a completely different path – ultimately leading me to walk away from my career in the media, working for the BBC, to take a chance on a new way of living – connecting with my intuition and internal compass, choosing to trust in life and where spirit was guiding me, after carrying deep pain, distrust in the world, addictive patterns, self-loathing and multiple dances with extremely poor mental health for many many years.

Since then, I have worked hard to heal myself. I felt that I had no choice, having experienced four huge “breakdowns” – that I can now see were breakthroughs – huge opportunities for change, to root into my darkness and fear, in order to branch up towards the light and a new way of living. Following and uncovering the overwhelming truth that lives deep within us, and beginning to try to choose love in each moment in opposed to the fear that I felt had crushed and crippled me for years on end. I was at a point where I knew deep down that if I did not heal, if I didn’t at least try, then I may not survive here on earth going forward. That my “old ways” of living, were leading into states of extreme anxiety, paranoia, hurt, distrust, disconnect and depression. I knew deep in my bones where this “old way” of living would lead me. So I jumped into healing and was blessed to discover energy medicine. The transformative power of light language. And the power and wisdom that lives within us all.

I have great faith and trust in this energy medicine. Having been through the mental health system multiple times, medicated, and numbing out my experience of life through various substances and addictions for years on end, light language and energy medicine came to me and spoke deeply to me in my darkest hour. Since then I have followed the medicine and the call of spirit. It has required great leaps of faith and trust that felt extremely unnatural to me. But, because I felt I had no choice, and that my survival was at stake, I chose to follow the call – despite my aversion to taking perceived “risks” when it came to my career, finances, and the way I lived my life. Over the years, I had crushed many of my dreams, deciding that the world was too scary to share my gifts or have a go. Choosing the “safe” option of the 9-5 instead, which ultimately didn’t serve me (well it did – because it got me to this point, but lets save the nuance of the human experience and the grand design for another love note!).

2024 has sent me many challenges, and so much beauty. It has demanded that I let go of many things that I identified with, and that I was afraid to release myself from. It has asked me to let go completely of where I thought my life was leading me. It has been extremely hard. I have been moving through deep grief and fear once again, but I have been able to come home to myself again and again, find self-compassion and self-trust amidst the in between.

2024 has felt especially special, because I have finally started to witness the process of falling in love with myself. I have been savouring these precious moments, despite the pain and fear that I have been moving through, as it feels like after decades of self-abuse, negative self-talk, and at times really hating myself – I am choosing to love myself, and I can feel the love growing in each cell of my being. Choosing to love myself as a complete or whole self. Loving my perceived “wounds”, loving myself through my “mistakes”, and beginning to see the infinite love and support around me – in each corner of my life, that at times I have been unable to see clearly or receive for many years.

I have been promising to share more of my journey of healing for some time. But I have been in a process of finding my voice. Trusting in my experiences and accumulated wisdom. I feel that I am at a turning point, where I am finally ready to start sharing more. But I am moving slowly, and treating myself like a precious child or baby. Loving and nurturing myself first, before “exposing” myself more fully to a world that has often felt scary to me. I know and trust deeply that divine timing is real and beyond what we can imagine with our limited/human/primal minds. I have been shown this year, the great intricacies of the divine plan. So although I have so much to share and can feel it bubbling up within me, I am trusting the message to wait. Allow myself time and to gift myself some deep rest before leaping into action.

Today I am sharing this energy medicine online – you can journey with the recording in your own time. It’s yours to keep to support your transformation and journey of growth. Much of my own healing has been received through online portals. The beauty in working online is that you can be in your own space – free from the inhibitions and resistance to let go fully that can sometimes crop up in sacred in-person spaces. I love receiving energy medicine in person, in circle, in community. But, when we are in our own safe space – without the perceived looks or impressions from others, we are able to release more fully into the medicine.

Sending so much love – I hope that you can remember that you are a magical being, capable of facing life’s challenges with grace, love and forgiveness. May we all collectively remember, our unique expressions of the divine. We rise together sweet souls. Take great care of yourself.

Sally xx